If all my friends sing, I can only silence. I never know what to tell the world how to meditate as I wanted to like them, could hear and sing like a normal life.
But I never felt like to return it, because I realized this is my life and this is my destiny.
Once childhood may I never felt this burden so large in my life, when I realized I was growing up I was a teenager and saw different among my friends. In front of my school paper written a musical team announced the formation of school, I wanted to join the team but unfortunately I can only lament my fate. I went home to meet dad, I sat with a face full of sadness,
In my world, only the father can understand what I say. Although it must be the language that he learned hand with difficulty.
I knocked on the door to signal I was in the room to talk with his father, he saw me and smile.
"Angel, let's go. Please sit down here, what is it? How do you grade the lesson today? "
I bowed, and his father began to read my face.
"What happened son, tell my father?"
"Dad why I'm different from my friends?"
"In this?" Asked the father to me,
I cried and I was then only 12 years old and sitting in junior high school.
"I can not sing, can not hear .. Why dad? "
Dad saw me with a smile,
"Do you feel sad because of that?"
"Yes, I'm very sad .. I wanted to like them .. Can sing and listen to beautiful music .. "
"Why do you want to be like them?"
"Because I want to be a team of school music, I want you .."
"Then do it .."
I paused to reply to a question no father then he got up and took me to a storeroom in the back room of my house, he began to clean the dust on a long table that I thought was the dining table. It was a classical piano. I looking with wonder,
"This is the legacy of your mother before she died after giving birth to you, my father had not been listened to since you were born .."
"And ..?" I asked.
"You might be born without being able to hear and sing. But you were born from the womb of a mother who fought for you in this world and the father believes, God gave you in life because you are worth it. "
"But I'm handicapped, not normal and could never hear the music? How can I be like my friends. "
"Unfortunately you can not listen to music, but you can play music?"
"How?"
"My father is here for you and believe me, the music will feel beautiful when you feel it from your heart. "
"Although I can not hear .."
Dad sat down and told me to notice disscion playing the piano, he closed his eyes and plays the piano listen botton
"My son, taste the music in your heart and you will know God so loved recluse anyone creature he created. Although you are born with a disability and can not listen to the music from your ears .. You can listen to your heart miss .. "
Daddy took me to touch every botton piano and we played together, I could not feel what the music was but I could feel the tone of the finger is depressed and it made me eager to practice classical piano, I knew my mother was a piano player before he died time bore me. I also struggled to play music and slowly I was able to make some beautiful music. All that I feel in my heart, all that I feel in my soul.
A few weeks later, I began to dare to enrolling in music school and the team accepted me even though he was my teacher know I was disabled but when I play the piano and he was impressed. I know all the people saw me with a strange, a friend named Agnes came to me.
"O people with disabilities, what can you do with your ears covered with dirt?"
The others laughed and added a sentence that hurt me,
"He's probably going to be a clown among our team, let alone .."
Ended scorn when my teacher came, they all returned to their respective positions in the music equipment that they controlled. Mother tutor music classes being warm to me, he introduced me to them all.
"The children started the day Angel will join in our team, hopefully you can work together with Angel ya .."
"What can you do for our team, he's deaf?" Sneered Agnes.
"Agnes!! mother never teach you to insult other people, watch your attitude. Although physically challenged Angel she also has feelings, please control your words. "
I'm glad she stuck up but it makes all the hate, the mother let me play the piano, with a nervous I could play well. None of applause from my friends, only one teacher mother. When classes are dismissed at the mom I approached the teacher, I write what I want to say to him, he read it.
"Mother, I back off from the team, I could not be part of them. Because I was handicapped. They will not accept me? "
"No dear, do not say so, you're special, you're talented, they're just not used to, believe me if you've been playing with them. You will be received with joy. So the mother did not want to listen to the sentence you want to back .. "
"But instead, I'm afraid when making all so chaotic."
"My son, a few weeks away, this school will celebrate her birthday, she believes you're the only one worthy to fill the place at the piano, because a friend Rica (formerly pianist) had been withdrawn because chickenpox"
I came home and let me know if I am accepted in the school musical team, the father was so excited waiting for the moment I would be in state, he continued to practice my piano playing. I do not tell me I'm very underrated recluse by sesame friends only team I think is not worthy of garbage beside them. They often scolded me with harsh words and then they insult me as a handicapped girl, it continued to happen while we were practicing preparation for the school stage. They never care what I play if true, they always say the wrong. And I'm sure I'm really playing this piano music, sadly when I asked where lies the fault that they charge more painful.
"You are deaf and deaf, how can you know the music that you play it right or wrong? You make me sick with your attitude and smart looking face in front of a teacher instead. "Agnes said to me.
I was crying listening to that sentence, I ran back to the house and the only sentence that I heard only one. "Go ye handicapped girl, do not ever go back to our team, we are not prepared to accept you in this group."
I cried until in front of my house and when I arrived at my gate, there was an ambulance in front of my house and brought my father. I chased a nurse who brought my father, my father was asleep without talking, a neighbor told me.
"Your father had a heart attack, you just come aunt. We went together to the hospital. "
I was shocked and cried! How my life without a father? Along the way I kept shed tears. Dad was unconscious from pain heart relapse, he was having heart problems since getting married when she was still very young. three days, I accompanied my father who never lost consciousness. Three days and I'm not been to school, not teachers Agnes asked me why I did not go today? "
"Maybe Angel was no longer able to join our team, he's not stupid! Always make a mistake and he went away in training and never returned until now. "
The teacher tried to go to my house, but no one in my home people. I know a few more days in the school musical celebration will begin. Perhaps it is a line of my hands, I should not be a school team. And I've been struggling most practicing the piano at home. But I can not do anything but keep my father because he is more important in my life, he was the only friend who can understand my situation after the mother died.
Oh God do not take my father, I pray every time to
A week later,
Dad woke up and saw me beside him. He could not say much, other than ask why I'm here, why I did not practice with the team my school music, I pretended to tell him if they gave me permission to keep the father. Father angry at me, he said I had to practice and he wanted me to appear there.
"Do not mind my father today, which is important you should be able to prove to everyone that you can play music and show them you are perfect girl"
I know it was tough, but I do not want to be sad to hear objections dad my best friend at school, he promised me to get well as long as I kept vibrant musical training. Finally I went to school again and go to music class. Mother greeted me with a good teacher, and immediately asked me to practice. After he left, Agnes and his friends approached, they pushed me to fall.
"You were the most repulsive creature of God, do not make our team embarrassed by the presence of you in our music team. no shame, but we've kick you .. "
I was silent, a friend said to Agnes,
"It's no good he was deaf, he didnt would listen to what we are talking about."
Agnes angry feeling I had not listened to all his anger, he together with my friends pushed me to get out of the room, I knocked on the door and when my hand trying to open the door, they clamped my hand without mercy, I cry out in pain and they do not care
"Oh she can scream, too ya .. thought he was mute, could also cried hehehe "they jeered.
They tortured me and I was helpless. My hands felt numb, my fingers might be broken. I asked my neighbor to this bandaged and he was very surprised with my situation. I told him I fell in the street. But I will never surrender to the music class team. Until that day comes, with my hand bandaged wounds I appeared at school. Earlier I said to my father.
"Dad today I'm going to play music in front of everybody, you have to listen to ya. "
"My son, my father would listen. I'm sorry I'm sick father, this is your special day. But the father was thinking how. Take a cell phone and let your father was on when you play. "
"Both my father." I followed my father clever idea.
As I left the room, the doctor said little things besides the father "weakens your heart, you must continue to think positive so that a speedy recovery"
"My son will perform today, it makes me anxious"
"Believe me, your child is a wonderful girl .."
I cried to my school, when I arrived at the school, Agnes and my friends saw me with disgust. It seems they did not want me on stage, they interesting my shirt and slapped me on the back of the stage.
"Go fast, do not exist here, we will perform without you. Quick go? Before the teacher came "
No, I will not give up even if they torture me. I had promised my father to play music at a school function. Because they get I do not give up, eventually they will not appear threatened and forced me to appear alone, they want to make me ashamed.
"Well, we're not going to appear. And do you perform alone, be a clown on the stage .. "
I was not able to do anything when they tied my hair like a fool, paint my face with red paint to resemble a circus clown. I do not care, I just want you to be happy and keep their promises to the father to appear in the stage. Once satisfied they were dressed like a clown going to encourage me on the stage when the teacher in charge of the event reader called our team and I came alone, they all ran cursing.
"Where else?" Asked the teacher,
I was silent, all people in the stands laughing at me, they see a clown who was on the stage, I really can not do anything.
"Jeez what happened to you and the others to go where? We will not be able to carry out this music event. "
I took the paper and write it
"Mom, let me play the piano, I had promised my father to play the piano, he was lying loose in the hospital, his heart weakened today, I was afraid he would get worse if I know the team failed to play with music in schools"
Mother looked at me, he realized I was very difficult to meditate.
"Well play this piano, show the world that you are someone special with your music"
"Thank you bu."
The teacher gives words of welcome to the audience who kept laughing because he saw a clown like me, but I do not care. With the benefits of 3g, I make video calls and father smiled at me giving spirit, phone lay piano on the table.
"God guided me that all went well. And listen to this music .. "
Every clink of music began to break all the laughter that initially scolding, insult me, this music brings votes travel story to show the world struggle, I was born disabled, I never know what it means to music, do not know how the sound of birds, even tragic father's voice I did not never know the sound that came out of my mouth alone.
But I believe I created was not without a purpose in this world. when the song was finished playing, all stand and applaud, I cried. teacher mother hugged me, I want to convey my message to women viewers.
"Thank you, give me a chance to be in this place. Now I know why I was different, because God loves me. I'm not going mad at Agnes and friends, I am grateful that they taught me about perseverance and sincerity. Including my father, who always told me "we do not need to feel unhappy with our circumstances, whatever its shape. Because God gives us the breath of life with the purpose of each "
Yes I believe it.
Finished.
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