I never thought that my life could still breathing after the accident that makes a car crash coma for 1 month. Angel My wife told me, that God still loves me so much that he gave me a new life in my life. During the recovery process I could only sit in a wheelchair lying to implement, the only child of only one in my family, my father and mother loved me.
My life is born with riches, beautiful wife, and since childhood I used to be spoiled as a rich kid. I went to school in Australia when graduating from high school from Jakarta, the rich do not make me able to have friends because my nature is subdued especially since small mom said I had a weak heart. No wonder they are always worried about my condition that I never think about it, funny I just know my heart is rotten when the accident occurred.
I sat on my porch overlooking the Java sea and chose it as a time of healing and recovery. My wife was making me a glass of milk and I accidentally saw a book lying on the novel terrace, a new wife might read it and put it there. I opened the sheet and tucked a picture of me, wife and a friend who had forgotten in my memory named Fernando.
Is not this picture when we were in Australia, Fernando worked as a maid cafe and then I, my wife and she took a picture with the discussions. My wife came and approached me as she put a glass of milk on the table.
"Why this picture is here love you?"
My wife was surprised, perhaps because he was afraid that the picture makes me think of the past.
"Sorry I accidentally found the novel of the post delivery person and when I opened a picture of us in college."
I pause, my wife immediately as clumsy.
"By the way now where Fernando, rather than the last time we still see it as a honeymoon in Perth?"
My wife was silent, the sound suddenly the phone rang and she immediately asked for permission to lift. I can only remember the image memory, Fernando was the first friend who became my friend when I almost died from the cold rain stricken, he was not a lucky man like my life. Even to connect his life he had worked as a waiter, I thank him for his blessings I can still live up to this moment.
I also blessing to know that I love my wife this time, our friendship was fine until a tragedy happens in our lives. Once everyone on campus defame me and said I was gay because it is too close to Fernando. Honestly I'm angry, we were close to normal and because he was the only friend in Australia and I am even willing to beat up people vilify its best friend. But the question continues to haunt u it, some of my friends had ever whispered that my friend is gay but Angel never said so even though they had known before the presence of me.
But life is bitter, in my own eyes with fellow Fernando kissing his gay partner. I was devastated and embarrassed to have friends like him, there was something strange when I saw him do so. Sidney was a free city for gays, but not for me. I forget all the good that he ever gave me, I feel disgusted to see the monster that lived with me for this. I know Fernando attention see that moment, she panicked and apologized because there has not honest with their status, the last thing I heard from his mouth is
"I might be gay, but I'm not the monster that is far besides you. To me anyone could think I'm despicable but not human you're my friend, because you're the only friends in my life that orphans without anyone "
I was not tempted by that sentence was sad though, I left Sydney on the spot by bringing Angel moved to Perth. I know Angel would like to suggest me to accept the fact but my heart froze and did not want to have gay friends and disgusting as him. Since then I never saw it as I said before we went back to see when I was on their honeymoon with my wife, exactly 3 years after we started dating at a fancy restaurant when Fernando started to become a chef in the restorant.
I realize this is the last time I saw him, because I'm going back to Jakarta. My wife suggested me to at least say good-bye to him I obey, I was invited to drink coffee together as old friends although in my heart would never forgive her status as gay. We talked about our lives sober, he congratulated me on our wedding. And we parted, when I got home I do not remember everything except a car hit me and I was in a coma to not have time to remember Fernando.
My wife back, his face a little sad he sat beside me.
"Honey, what you really think about the picture"
"There is no question but where Fernando now?"
My wife looked down, saying "He is here ..". I became confused,
"What do you mean?"
"Fernando will not exist in this world anymore, but he'll always be here, precisely in the heart of what you have today."
"I do not know what you mean?"
My wife cried as she talked, at the last moment after the accident occurred. The man who brought me to the hospital was Fernando, the doctor said that my heart was not functioning. I just have a little time to stay alive and doctors recommend Fernando seek donor heart. Angel was so surprised my wife with the news of the accident, she was crying beside Fernando. It is impossible to find the right heart in a critical condition such as this.
"Fernando, Anthony would soon become a father, I am no longer able to live if my unborn child has no father .." Angel said.
Fernando smiled and said:
"Believe me when Anthony (my name) will continue to live next to you forever"
That's the last words of my wife, Fernando came to the doctor and said she wanted to donate her heart to me. The doctor refused to tell the truth Fernando desire because there is no law that allows healthy people to do so. Fernando did not despair, for her life which alone would not have a future no one will advance one who cared about him. He heard that only the dying person can donate him, my friend did something stupid.
Shortly before his death he called the doctor and say that one donor who was willing to donate his heart. The doctor asked him who he was, with a smile behind the telephone Fernando said "I'm waiting for you at the back of the hospital, the heart can only survive for a while, I ask the doctor come in 10 minutes." Boldly Fernando at a rammed his truck through the , he sacrificed himself to become donors in the state of dying.
Angel received the news after the operation was going well when he was about to ask that person to donate his heart donor and thought to say thank you to family, doctors say the donor is Fernando. Angel is not possible to say it to me, he just wanted to wait for the right moment and at this point that I know. I can only weep at the grave my friend. Whether imprisoned fool I've never understood the meaning of friends in my life. If only time I forgive what happened might not have any regrets in my life.
"He's a friend who not only helped my life once but twice, is not he who should have apologized but the apology I've never understood recluse he is a true friend in my life, I'm too selfish to say that he was gay and he is a disaster in my life. Perhaps the last word to me he'd never forgotten in my memory, he was gay but he is not a monster who will love his best friend. "
I'll never forget this, even though my life went with time, I hope my story does not make you be like me. Remember friends present in our lives without ever we realize that there is no real perfect man in this life. my son was born a few months later and in memory of my friend, Fernando gives name him.
Gay, lesbian, men blind, mute woman they are human beings who have hearts to love and love in friendship. At least we know now before it's too late.
This true story ever published in Kompas newspaper.
And part of the history of this story
contained in the novel to 3
Agnes Davonar same title
"FRIENDS."
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